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Normal Human.

I wanna be normal human being again. somehow i tired of trying. Maybe it was mean to be like this. But why everything end up hitting me instantly.

Band camp

Fall.

It takes too much to handle the love that i had given away .
Scrafices that i made to love you for infinity.
Stupid stupid stupid.
I love you like you're my last and no other human even existed.
I don't look in human's eyes like i see you.
I fall for you idiot.
But why can't you give me the same treat?
Why can't you appreciate?
and look at my eyes like no other.
Look at me.
Deep into my eyes.
What had you done?
You've done something crime and mean.
It takes a killer pain strikes in my heart
and life.
It hurtts so bad.
Until i can't even fall anymore.
Its like i don't have my heart with me.
Because you took it away from me.
I fall hard for you.
i'm not regretting, but wondering.

Proposal

I wonder .. how it feels like to get propose by someone you love. I bet its beautiful isn't it? Those vow to love till the end. Promises that need to be kept forever. Those things to do with someone you really love. That's what i imagine when i'm with you. Promise to take a good care of you, no matter what happens which is verryyyy impossible for us to be back again. just imagining love life which i didn't get to feel those butterflies in my tummy. Obviously it hurts to see people falling in love, but not me. But i guess its not the right time to fall again, because i must focus for my Spm examination. Once you fall, its like consider sold! Its hard to recover, like what i'm suffering now. Beautiful indeed but the pain lasts forever. So i try to be alone until i reach to College life.

Went Missing.

I'm back! Went missing for shortwhile after the band camp. Gah, talking about band camp makes me miss those moments. :c but the trauma still had in me, i just can't get rid of it. which i don't even know why .. scratch that, there's an event coming up this december. check the next blog to stay tune. haha. winks*

Once i whisper to your ears that ' i love you ' . That means i really do.