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I told my friends that i have moved on, i told them i have forgotten all about you and i have no feelings for you at all but everything that i told them wasn't true. After all this time i was just pretending and there hasn't been a day that i stopped thinking about you. It's always you on my mind and it hurts. I really miss you but i'm afraid to make a call because maybe i would be a bother. It scares me to think that you don't wanna talk to me anymore as i've become a completely stranger to you. A year passed and your 1st Anniversary is coming up. Its also sad to think that it wasn't me that you'll celebrate with .. Apart from that, it will also be a year for us that we're not together anymore.
The changes around make me feel lost. Sometimes i stare at the sky and talking alone like an idiot wishing you're the star. Imagining you're the star and i'm talking to you which you were the brightest star in the sky who used to shine my day and night.
My feelings for you have always been real and special because the word "special" is just who you are to me. Eventhough you're completely went missing and far from my sight,
but still you're there in those shadows and dreams. how i really wish those fake illusion are true. Those haunts every second my life when YOU gave me the biggest impact of my life and the biggest lost for me until everything turns into a heartless dust.
"I love you still and always will" .. That's just fake words coming out from your lips which at the end of the day you walk away and left me completely nothing but a knife in my heart. Maybe that was the exact meaning of that word. I know that we would come to the end one day but there will always a good way to find instead of hurting and killing people inside. Meeting you at the hall on the first day we met wasn't just a coincidence, it was faith who bring us together. and how i wish i have a time machine to repeat that moment back to where we called it as Lovebirds again.

I know things won't be that way, but maybe in another life i get to ask what i want and if that happens my answer would be you.